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It seemed to me I stood by the iron gate leading to the drive, and for a while I could not enter for the way was barred to me. by Daphne du Maurier from the novel Rebecca, 1938.
I am standing in the garden of my childhood. It is so beautiful and peaceful, just like my life at the time. My Omi planted and tended this garden everyday of her life. A mid-afternoon rain shower drenches the garden and giant puddles fill up. I am there standing in my blue bathing suit, and I look up at the gray sky letting the drops fall on my face and in my hair. The air is war, not cold, and I jump around. The water is a few feet deep and is war like a swimming pool. I try to swim but it isn’t deep enough yet, maybe in a few hours. “Es regnet, es regnet, es macht die Erde nass, und. . . .“ I can never remember the end to this song. I jump around a few more times and run around. My Omi comes outside and laughs. She takes a photo of me, so I can always stand in the garden of my childhood.
A version of I met her in 2004, but through the Bonsai Story Generator
When the air conditioner clicked off the smell of death began to seep out of the room like a snake through the cornfields. Slithering its way through the air, a man in Japan looked up, holding his cup of coffee half way and said, “she is dead.”
The children in the apartment below heard the click of the air conditioner go off as well. In this case I say children not because they were young, but because they were her children. They were all adults, and had children of their own, but lived in the flat below her. When the sound of the insistent buzzing went quiet they looked up at the ceiling, a quiet gasp, a moment of silence, of doom filled the apartment and they looked at each other with dread. They knew that one of them had to have the chore of checking up on her, but none of them wanted to visit the old women.
They didn’t know of her demise but they all remembered the last time she hobbled down the wooden stairs with her metal Wallgreen’s cane. She came to their door during dinnertime. With her cane she tapped at the door, with a tap tap echoing down the alley.
I met her in 2004, the year that Cecily graduate from college. I remember watching her in my thesis writing class. The first day she came in late, her hair blown in from the wind, wispy, brown hair in a crazy mess. There was something about her, that you couldn’t put your finger on, something ethereal that she carried with her in those days. With her books in her hands, she breezed into the small classroom and sat down in one of the tiny desks.
“by emptying people’s minds
I woke up from the dream gasping for breath, taking in big gulps of air as if I had never breathed before. I felt the air fill my lungs, my rib cage stretched, my chest muscles aching. I don’t remember what my dream was about, it seemed so clear and vast in while in my presence, but now it was slipping away. No matter. I looked around a little, looking at the light stream through the blinds creating stripes on the wall. Closing my eyes. I take a deep breath filling my lungs. Slowly I let the air out, imagining how my body turns the oxygen into carbon dioxide. Next to me, he slept soundly, not realizing that the world continued with out him.
I’m sitting here in the dark right night listing to the hum of the refrigerator and the ticking of the clock on our far wall with nothing much else to do but play wow, watch the fog roll, or latment the passing of another day. So instead I felt like writing you an email.